First in 2006

This is my first post in 2006. Hopefully not the last one. I just returned from IPM from the Netherlands, where I spent the last weekend. It was a good feeling to meet my former teammates, as well as lots of MCP currents. In a way it surprised me that I still knew so many people there. On the other hand it felt a bit superficial - coming only for two days, exchanging a few words with many people, but having only a couple of really meaningful conversations (meaning not just for the sake of talking with somebody and spending the time at hand).

The AI reunion agenda exceeded my expectations (I set them very low for myself in the beginning), and although I slept quite long each morning, I think the discussions we had gave me something I can bring back into my life. The reunion also confirmed my previous thoughts: that only a few of us are really feeling 'at home' in their new jobs and traineeships, and it's certainly gonna take a few months, perhaps years before we all find the right thing to do and place to be at, and before we start feeling comfortable in our post-AIESEC lives.

This is also my case. Although I definitely can't say that I feel to be in the wrong place, doing wrong things, the truth of the thing is that I felt some unease in my mind since I left the Netherlands, started a job, started meeting different set of people.

Perhaps reintegration. Not in the sense of moving from one country to another. More about switching completely the community and context you're living in, if this is the right word to call it.

To conclude it: this year will very likely be a defining year for my next life. Defining in the sense - whether I get stuck, or get over initial difficulties and get outside the black box I've stepped into.